A BRAND NEW LIFE

HBO RULES!

2010-05-31T21:39:00.002+08:00

I just finished 'Generation Kill' season 1 ep 2 online.
I'm sooo tired of the loading and is thinking of buying the series online some times later.
But I guess I was lucky..? Or..?
Cos' I just visited hboasia and they are putting 'Generation Kill' on HBO demand!
Isnt that great?? It's like my prayer had been answered. Thank you very much, god!

...::
This series isnt a very good series for youngsters with all the nudes and fuck words.
As one episode is around an hour plus, the 'fuck' word has come out more than 50 times.
either a normal conversation, which in a sentence there would be 2-3 f* word.
or when scolding, shouting, or during marching, it feels like the f* word keeps striking you constantly. -.-"

My dad heard that but didnt say anything so I guess I'm really grown up. :)
My sister heard what I said, she was in shocked that i still continue to watch the series when my dad is near.
~~l0ls.

I like to see super violent wars but not in real life of course. Not like a girl right?
even baby also said that alot of times. l0ls. -.-"
i dont find anything wrong in seeing such series, or movies. hahas.

..::.
My two DVD series havent arrived yet. l0ls. I guess I have to go down to take from post office, again. :(
So I wont start buying again yet.

P.S/ Oh yeah! I am going with my dad to view flats for the first time and it is on his worktime as agent. see my dad in action.
I have to be there to take photos for one of my fb friend to look and choose.
He's coming to singapore for 3 months for NTU internship so he need a place to stay.
I dont know why he didnt apply for the hostel there or maybe non-students cannot?
not sure..

THIS SMALL HOURS WITH LITTLE WONDERS

2010-05-31T13:20:00.002+08:00

Let's read some meaningful lyrics. :)

'Little Wonders' by Rob Thomas
let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know the hardest part is over
let it in, let your clarity define you
in the end we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate time falls away
but these small hours, these small hours still remain

let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine, until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind if it's me you need to turn to we'll get by
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made in these small hours these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate time falls away
but these small hours, these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget the way i feel right now

in these small hours these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate these twists & turns of fate time falls away
but these small hours these small hours, still remain
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate time falls away
but these small hours these little wonders still remain

Meaningful lyrics in an unmeaningful life of mine. :)
Anyway I still liked them.

Admit it, I cant avoid. A year and a few months ago, alot of things did happen.
Subsidizing the pain isnt going to work. Hack care of everyhting isnt going to work.
every the few nights, I would cry through that.
every the few nights, I would think so deep that it hurts.

Anyway I hope a workaholic act would do the trick, at least temporary.
More OTs then! :)

SICK!!!!

2010-05-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

I learned Swedish till fed up cos' the teacher too handsome. -.-"
Nevermind that. l0ls.

Watched "Shrek forever After" twice. yea yea I know.
Oh, did I mention my items arrived from UK? So happy to see my items. :)
And I bought some more items from UK today. Should be able to get it next week, hopefully -.-

I'm still sick~ for, like, 4 or 5 days already. Ons-and-Offs. :(
Okay, let's continue like that. hahas!
I've been on the hook of movies again. :( It become a habit, and it's like 'drug' to me.

...::..
Oh ya..have a few reminders, or rather notes.

It's because you have a boyfriend then you dare to say all these stuffs to a no-boyfriend or no-one-will-like-me me.
That one, I dropped it.
Next thing I knew, change of full personality?
Using some friends to get famous or know more guys perhaps?
Start to go some places like clubbings, pubs or stay somewhere super late through the night?
How do you think of a-once-close friend think about that? Go kill some brain cells, will ya? -.-

Oh god~ sometimes this friendship is hard to mend. I guess what baby told me is all true.
Some friends are never meant-to-be in the first place.
Actually I wanted to let him see that his words ain't true but I cannot don't believe. :(

...::..

Sometimes I really think that RC is a poor thing.
alot in his mind yet he cant figure out what to do.

SWEDISH~ kärlek

2010-05-18T14:00:00.003+08:00

I was in the mid of learning my swedish now...
With baby.
And now I am trying to get away with a little break while baby still learning. l0ls.

Oh my god. Everytime I heard the swdish language, I keep laughing. Baby also don't understand why. -.-"
I so wishing that I learned advanced english instead. l0ls.
anyway swedish isnt that bad because at least I can pronounce all the words. Not sentences yet.

...::...

Yesterday went to IKEA with family to buy things, of course.
I bought something for my closet and a red table lamp, the most outstanding decoration in my room.
I saw that once I am at the entrance, and fell in love with it instantly.
Then, there are two other color choices; black and white. So we went up to check. But still got the red one instead. -.-"

Bought some organization stuffs and a wooden stool with steps (not sure what is it)
Dad saw me and my sister having a quality time viewing all the sample kitchens, bathrooms and bedrooms..
guess what he suggest?
"Why not we re-design the whole house and throw out everything, then install all-IKEA stuffs inside the house?"
Cool idea right? l0ls.
Okay, so I'll put that on the list. -.-"

...::...

Okay okay, got to go learn. Got caught blogging by baby. -.-"

SOME WORDS I'LL BRING TO MY GRAVE

2010-05-14T13:50:00.002+08:00

another song which describe my past one year feeling down the road.

'Words I Couldn't Say' by Rascal Flatts

In a book- in a box- in the closet

In a line- in a song I once heard

In a moment on a front porch late one june

In a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon

There it was at the tip of my fingers

There it was on the tip of my tounge

There you were and I had never been that far

There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms

And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone

No back up plan no second chance

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldnt say

There's a rain that will never stop fallin

There a wall that I tried to take down

What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips

So I held back and now we've come to this

And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone

No back up plan no second chance

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone

No back up plan no second chance

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldnt say

IT STILL HURTS ~

2010-05-14T13:18:00.004+08:00

I found one song which did relate to my now-feelings.
Sometimes songs explain everythng. :)

It's a country band.

'What Hurts The Most' by Rascal Flatts.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ it

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

...::...

I'm just starting to wait for my order to be delivered from UK.
since I got a call from the bank and an email that said it's on its way.
I'm guessing Fedex but my sis guess UPS. l0ls.
I usually see Fedex doing the delivery for my neighbours next door.
no point guessing now..shall see later in times.

I cant wait and hope everything goes smoothly and no damages as I dont do refunds if it's for overseas items. -.-
troublesome~

I guess the rest of life is waiting, and that includes waiting to die~ l0ls. damn! -.-"
baby said I crazy now. hahas. wishing for death than life.
he told me he'll be by my side as a very close and supporting friend.
bless him, my boy. :)

THE CRAZIES~

2010-05-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

Back to my life. -.-
Before i blog all the way down, I have one thing to say.

Dont think you have a good figure and show it off.
Dont give excuses that singapore is way too hot and so so. I heard that a thousand times.
You might as well dont wear next time, since you love wearing until like that.
What people is wearing, you follow.
What people is styling, you also follow.
This kind of act continues, it only jeopardise this limited friendship.
can you be more like yourself, and try not to intimate others. It really makes me sick. -.-

..::..

I bought quite a pile of storybooks for my self-pleasure.
My darling came over to my house and saw that pile of books.
Now she is very motivated to read. l0ls. Right darling? ^-^

On Friday, I had to buy bookshelves for my books and CD-selves for my DVDs.
So for now, I had to rearrange all my stuffs which are in my bookshelf again -.-
But no worries, later baby coming down to help me.
Later we will be having a big quality time together for book readings, sharings, diary-ings and movies! >0<

anyway I still have doubts on sharing too much things with you, wait you betray me. :(
l0ls. jkjk. I felt that having such a close friend for 10 years with no age boundaries, we should celebrate. :)
Movies: Iron Man 2, The Backup Plan.
I always wanted to see french movies but ah, it's all about sex. -.- this is so damm... 0.0
Maybe we should catch one too? I dont know. anyway this kind of topic is already opened. l0ls.

..::...

Tomorrow onwards not so free. But i really loved to go prawning. :( *Sigh*
Still have babysit and loads of work awaiting for me. -.-"

2010-05-04T12:09:00.002+08:00

Watching 'The Vampire Diaries'. This is great~
Read the 3rd book already for true blood. Going in to 4th book soon.
I guess in two months' time, I could read the whole series of books. -.-"

...::..

baby accompanied me the whole night yesterday while i was taking care of the baby.
my friend went out of town and will be back next week.
Her parents and her husband's father not free at the moment.
24 hr mum -.-"

luckily he came to keep me accompanied though he dont like kids.
It will be surprising to see him willingly to hold a baby for 1 minute. l0ls. -.-
A good friend when in need :)
when seeing him with kids, he really dont have a way to handle kids.
he talked to a child like he's talking to an adult. *Sigh -.-" lame shit ar..him. l0ls!
but at least there is someone to talk to.
I did ask him once, why dont he sterilized himself.
He stared at me with his big eyes and I felt that he wanted to slap me. l0ls! It's just a joke.
Come to think of that, it really made me ROFLMAO. -.-

..::...

he's coming tonight again if not I cant get my sleep.
Hasnt been sleeping while for these few days. *sigh 0.0 panda eyes~~

Back to my show. ^-^

Quote of my day:

Complaining is good for you as long as you're not

complaining to the person you're complaining about.

WILDLIFE! ..... ANOTHER WORLD ?

2010-04-30T16:11:00.002+08:00

It's been so so so long since when? l0ls.
Taking care of a 2 year old boy constantly - fell sick this week.
Slacking at home for now. *Sigh
Watched too much movies previously.
Wanted to save money for the time being so I announced myself 'bankrupt' in my own terms !

Went on a little trip to HBO shop online store.
Realized I had so many things I wanted to buy. My wish list will be full in no time. -.-"
I really must get myself another job ~
Singapore really has a very narrow variates in jop scope compared to overseas.
It's like 98% are office jobs, with never-ending stress.
It can be fun to find a zoo job overseas but not here.
In my heart, I still perfer in a more wildlife side, wildlife conservation - that freedom smell in air.
Though it's a dream now but I'm going to make it through.
Left my wonderful life with no love & troubles - only can work and work.

..:::::....

I told baby I dont want to find love anymore with 2 terrible misfortunes.
If one more time, I think I really cant handle it - commit suicide straight rather than depressed.
I rather spend my time in useful things like having a hell lot of fun with animals.
Sure this kind of act will cheer anyone up. :)
I dont mind spending my 24hr on animals.
At least being with them, I dont need medications and counsellings. Mood turns to a better.
Even my spirit will be lifted higher than usual.
I really want to have a whole new life in the years ahead.

...::..:::::..

Now watching 'Ghost Lab' on youtube.
*finding evidences in certain areas like Louisiana, New Orleans, Dallas, which I was planning to head to for holidays. -.-"
It's ok. l0ls. Went there for tours. hahas!

Previously watched 'The Haunted' on youtube under animal planet.
*animals usually sense things more accurate than humans, even spirits. It's a nice documentary.

Later, watching 'Haunting Evidences' on AXN and youtube.

CLASSI-CAL~

2010-01-17T02:36:00.002+08:00

First thing: It's been one month ++ since I blog. l0ls. Been busy-lame excuse. haha!
Second thing: belated New Year 2010!! No new year resolution sia. hehes!
Third thing: graduating soon~ sad. miss you guys real bad. :(

Just came back from Justin's birthday party @ simei like 2 hrs ago.
Super doper f u n ! With Jacky around. He is the spark which start out the fire. yeah~ l0ls.
Went home with Soobin @ 11pm ++.
Talking shits in the taxi, I think the driver also wanted to laugh.

Oh yeah, we had finished part 1 of our interview this week. l0ls.
That is so damn funny sia!
My group has Jacky n Jeffrey + me as the interviewees for this week.
Louis, Marcus and Han Chao as interviewers.
Marcus is a shy boy, kind of like one. l0ls. Louis is the one bombing the questions.
But it's a good thing, Jerilee Leong wont bomb you questions then. l0ls!
Actually I was expecting Marcus to be serious cos he's the CEO, manager & supervisor.
Ended up it's kind of awkward and funny, I guess. hahas!!
Jacky told me Jerilee Loeng bombard questions to him like a machine gun. l0ls.!

Anyway, Jerilee Leong said our class are too cute to bomb fire in. l0ls!!
We took photos..but some of them are not in.

See Jacky's reaction?? Diao~

We took a formal one, cool sia~
With some people missing...

Saw Jacky there, head popping out?? Jeffrey also.

Behind Jeffrey, there is a small small head.

Yea~ That is Jacky! l0ls.!

TO BE UNFORGETTABLE..

2009-12-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

Two days had passed for this week. 1st day of the December month.
OMG! I cant wait for end of December. I'm going for Body World exhibition..again! l0ls.
Soo Bin also going on the same day as with my family. I wonder who will be taking the other ticket. hahas!

Sooo nice..got booked by people for the holidays!! hahas! no rest days. so vexed~ :(

...

Yesterday's atmosphere is totally weird cos.....you know I know...
But today I hacked care. NOMB mah~ >.< IMAO !!!

She said everyone makes mistakes. Ya it's true.
everyone had overcome difficulties. Ya it's true.

The mistake I've made previously, I've learned.
Others said 'once bitten twice shy' but for me 'once bitten twice bitten thrice shy'.
I made the same mistake twice cos I dont believ I'll make that mistake again. Hais, worng judgement.
For this I have think very carefully. I wont do the same thing again.

Yes. Though I didnt overcome my 1st mistake but I had overcome my 2nd mistake.
For this, you know I know. hahas!
During this overcoming stage, lots of emotion pouring in.
For what I have gone through since 9 months ago, it's totally unforgettable.
For that, I swear to myself not to forget the incident and protect myself. I dont wish to get hurt anymore.

- ps/I dont hate the guy but I still dont wish to see that girl. l0l0ls!

: _

2009-11-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

Finally, I understood everything. Someone told me what had happened.
Now then I realised I really arent awared of what had happened previously. l0ls.

...

Today spent 30 minutes talking to Sugi. 150 minutes studying semestral project quiz.
That moment spending the time by myself in the library was quiet.
l0ls. I can spend my own time studying, taking photos and staring at the table.
& secretly looking @ the guy sitting behind me. hahas!! nope nope, I wont be back to my old self.

For me, all men and women are equal.
I dont care whether you are a guy or a girl, I just treat you as a human.
Alot of things in my life had change after all those happenings.

....

What they said about "Dont judge the book by its cover"
This is so true sia~
Hais...this is such a blue monday.

THURSDAY ! H I G H ! OUTING

2009-11-30T00:10:00.015+08:00

Thursday's outing @ Amber 21 @ Clarke Quay till morning !!
Wilson, Liyan, me, Yaoren & his friend, Ivan and Sugi.
Actually there was Samantha but dont know where she went. hahas!
I still remember I reached home @ 7.30am ++
Taking the LRT, thinking "Why LRT no bell to press??" Then I realise... hahahs! Stupid lor!

hahahs. I wont say so much on the outing cos I dont know how the outing went.
maybe there is a worst part, maybe there is a fight so what. I also dont know.
But i believe alot of things had bubbled out de lor.
hahas. nevermind. let bygones be bygones.
I hope no one did striping. l0ls. J K ! !
Still alot of photos..posted to facebook sooooon~

Severe hangover on Friday afternoon all the way till night. with flu on Saturday.
Today stomach no appetite sia~~ hahas. throat is sore.
now I seriously wanted to know what I did on that day sia~ soooo curious. hahas.
maybe I hit someone in the face. Oops!

...

Next week is a busy week. fainting sooon. headache headache.

: _

2009-11-24T21:46:00.003+08:00

--> taking a break from report. l0ls!

Some super niceee TV series up for those who loooves reality happenings, investigations, & super lame & funny comedy.

Actually, well they are my favourites. l0l0ls! especially moonlight resonance-once you watched, you will know the world.

...

I'm soooo totally into twilight saga!! l0l0ls!
Waited for a year since last year twilight. FINALLY the wait is over. Y E S !
Latest news from Channel 5 9pm news-twilight saga: eclipse coming soon next year July! Oh yeah! wait 10 years, it's also worth. l0ls!!

Anyone want to watch "A Christmas Carol"?
I can see that the CG is super nice and perfect for this 3D animation. hahas!
Even my mum also know that face on the poster confirm is Jim carrey!

....

Last Sunday was a spendid outing!
My sis went out to buy her prom dress, & at the same time I bought myself one dress.
The shop import quite alot of korean blouses and dresses. very classic and beautiful!
maybe I will wear it this thursday, since Sugi they all are heading to a pub.
maybe only-lah. hahas!

Today I met Joey at the bus stop! Been only 3 years since I saw her. l0ls.
We still recognised each other sia~ hahas.
She did change. talking style, surface look. Kind of outgoing person. hahas!
But also kind of weird..her house down there has a bus stop. hmmm~ why did she come to primemart that bus stop? o.0

VERY UPSETTING

2009-11-21T23:24:00.014+08:00

A headache previous week. l0ls.
I was real emotional but I limit myself for 2 hours on that.
Yesterday I kind of couldnt take it anymore, so I kind of ran to the restroom after Semicon lecture.
hahas..besides doing businesses in the restroom, what else will I do? hahas!

But then, as always, after a long rest, which is today, I'm completely fine.
There is one thing I really notice about.
My this friend, Yaoren, is very good at reading people through the power of his eyes. l0ls!
No wonder he's called "OH MY GOD". hahas.
During LAN game, it's a VERY GOOD word to use. l0l0ls!!

I was very surprised about him saying something yesterday.
He said I was like protecting myself, and afraid of getting hurt by something again.
i still remembered that sentence clearly.
YES! He is totally correct. l0ls!
When I come to think of it, precisely I'm protection myself from being hurt again. Be it friendship or relationship.

Liyan understand me the most because she know the situation I'm in.
It's easy talking to her because she also understand.
For Luen, sometimes I dont have to speak up, he also know. Only sometimes. hahas!

>Oh ya, one thing. Previously I already said dont ask me out for any outings. So I meant it. Dont ask me out. All you got is multiple rejections only.

.........

I really love how I am in now.
I really hope you all dont ruin the way I am now.
It's very hard for me to put down my emotional state asides, and now with school reopening, I have to try even harder.
I'm now living in my own perfect world, just dont come ruin it.

.........

My beloved darlings' photos - updated.

hahas! I cant wait for another male chinchilla to join in the fun! l0ls!

HELP THE ANIMALS

2009-11-07T16:38:00.003+08:00

Last Wednesday, my parents drove me down to Pasir Ris Farmway to check out for puppies.
I wanted to buy Pomeranian dog breed. I saw two very cute ones. It's in considerations. l0ls.
After than, we went in further to check out the pets farms.

My mum and I found the chinchin farm. hahas.
The couples sell rodents.
We had a long conversation with the shopkeeper, Jovyna, on Chinchillas.
I learnt even more of it.
They have boarding services, I think that's a relief. l0l0lss!
My mum wanted to buy a white chinchilla for Vivi.
Jovyna said a violet gene chinchilla is expensive and precious, and yet I can get it so cheap. l0ls.
So her meaning is $600++ is cheap? o.0 ... l0ls.
We bought toys and a different brand of pellets for Vivi & BB.
We visited more of the pets farm with puppies for sales
But seeing the environment of each farm..it really hurts.
They are all not in good conditions, and you are letting puppies to be under this conditions? OMG!
Hygiene is the most important thing for a puppy's health. That is a real disaster. ICanScream!!

The last stop we alight is at a animal shelter area, Animal Lovers League.
There are 300 stray dogs sheltered under that association.
The dogs there really do need medical attention.
They are depending on kind & caring people to donate.
maybe some very kind people can donate $1000 & above for the association?
If anyone should go down and take a look, & buy their self-made calendar @ $10 each.
Please please help them.
.....
You dont throw animals when they are sick.
And please, if you only find it cute when it's a puppy, I strongly encourage you dont buy.
And if the medical fees of an animal can kill you, you also no need to think of buying.
.....

My dad chnaged Digital Starhub cable to Hubstation. Y E A H ! !
I can record my all tme favorites while watching another show when they are on the same timing. hehes!
Mood: HAPPY!

.........""

Yesterday went to play LAN with Luen & Liyan. l0ls.
Play L4D. It was super nice. kill zombies. hahas!
While playing, we saw Luqman & Eddy they all. also playing the same game. hahas.

Baby always like squeezing beside me, with all the big space he has. l0ls.
thanks baby for bringing me all the joy ever since LL passed away. :)

O H Y E A H !

2009-11-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

I've been sooo sooo busy over this weekends. no rest. hahas! l0ls.
Busy here & there, left & right, up & down.
yesterday something unpleasant happened. There were some quarrels over at my grandma's house.
My little cousin was totally not pleased with her dad, and the relatives, and grandma.
AHHH~ actually I also didnt care much. The more I care, the more I got stressed and angry. l0ls.
I just annoyed it...cos it's true that some of my relatives can be kind of pissed off but I can do nothing.
They are still my elder relatives. Wait I got blacklisted. hahas! so happy!!! =.=

...

Now I'm sooo into cantonese songs. I love 林峰! He's the man! l0ls. **ShyShy
He is that kind of man that I want. HAHAHA! omg, this is totally mad, man! l0ls.
I'm sooo into cartoons. hahas!
Tom & Jerry, Oggy & the Cockroaches, Pucca...it feels so good while you study and watching. :)
Back into my childhood life again - lor. haha, sooo funny!
I'm sooo into 终极.
My mum said my IQ is totally way below average cos' I'm sooo into 终极三国. l0ls!
no lor, I love this series is cos' it got sooo many kuso(s) stuffs. Y E A H !

...

O H Y E A H !
My mum is going to buy me a digital camera for my birthday!
Perhaps buying a white color Chinchilla.
My dad is asking me whether I wanted to change phone. How about iphone latest model?? l0ls.
Perhaps a desktop or another labtop.
sounded very greedy, I admit. hahas!
I'm buying my sister a ipod touch. l0ls.
There's always a cycle to these.

(Aiyo~~my baby keep looking at me typing my blog. *Sooo sooo shy. Now he is impatience.)
hahas! **ShyShy-

JASSAN"S 4 ROOM

2009-10-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

Ever since holiday till now, emotions have been ups and downs.
However, that heartache has long gone since then.
Like this song, I just leave my feelings to be. Think too much only making things worst.
From denial to conclusion to renewal, it took me 8 months to think really clearly.
Now I'm in the contentment room. I felt very happy.

My life is getting a new start now. And in 2 months' time, it'll be 2010.
Time flies by very fast, and one should appreciate every single day.
You dont know when will be your time to go right? So just stay happy and do things that you like.

My motto for my new life each day:
7 hrs sleep, 15 hours to fill yourself with happiness, give all unhappiness for 2 hours.
Always smile, things will be better and eventually luck will come. Be positive.
Though you are unhappy, just smile. l0ls.
Be straight, if i'm unhappy with things, just said it.
Have bf, I also wont neglect my friends. If unhappy, I still have friends to rely on.
Dont try to trust all friends, only some are meant to be trusted.

....

Now I'm going crazy with my studies but I like it.
Stress can make you happy, forget all unhappiness.
Recently, I got hooked on singing as well. I love R O C K E R S! hahas!!
Singing alone is lonely of course but at least my neighbors can hear me. l0ls!
Hmmm...I will be back to update more crazy stuffs up. :)

ESCAPE LIFE

2009-09-06T21:10:00.002+08:00

N i c e !
I've been taking a big time out in my life for the past two weeks.
Occupied myself with some individual activities, and lots of taiwan dramas. lols.
I'm still taking my time off. Somehow I dont really wish any disturbance for the time being.

..

Have been thinking quietly to myself sometimes.
mostly about trusting people.
true that my mum is worrying sick about me believing everyone. l0ls. no say on that.
got betrayed so many times and yet stil wanting to try to trust.
I think this time I wont be like who I am last time.
My love life is already dead..I dont want my life to be dead as well.

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When everything is back to itself again..i'll be back again. l0ls.
Mum bought me quite alot of taiwan dramas including 终极三国.
tomorrow, she will be buying 终极一班. l0ls. that's so great. hahas!
now I have to live on alot of cold and super lame jokes to forget all those sad memories. l0ls.
my mum only just want to make sure I occupied my time. l0ls.
If not, usually on internet to find taiwan actors' bloggies and online shopping. hehehes.

My love <3

Happy 44th Birthday, Singapore!

2009-08-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

l0ls. Today is home all day.
Played Maple for 6 hours.
Watch Singapore history, NDP, youtubing. l0ls. boring life bah. hahas!

This year NDP abit different but the sequence is still the same. l0ls.
Luckily never go there to see live show again. hahas!
anywhere what's this year NDP song theme? l0ls. I dont even know.
abit of a pain in the ass...not much interesting shows as well. l0ls.
but someone never contact me today, luckily.
he thought I will be with my "bf" today. hahas !! Y e a h !

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Wilson's masterpiece.
He shouldn't have choose engineering this path. l0ls.

artistic. l0ls.
Still use Assist. Manager Mr Lee's soldering wire to do wire sulpturing.
Ended up Liyan throw it away. hahas!

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Thinking whether you want to show off you have this or that lor.
Or want to fight over things lor.
I dont know you..still friends of course.
But I'll straight forward, you will get offended. Y e a h !

Entry Updated: 1st August 09

2009-08-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

Liyan's 20th birthday !
After my work, headed down to PS to meet Luen & Hong Rui.
Kind of pissed off at first cos I just want to join them for dinner but Luen asked me to sing K first.
Who the hell will sing K for the last one & a half hour? I cant even sing much songs lor.

Somemore got that Rencong, I dont even want to sing. he's the asshole.
Such a big guy yet still crying everyday.
Ridiculous, crazy, mentally-illed somehow.
Always sms me & say he very down, sad, emo, crying now. Siao. Please go to a doctor in IMH.
See him like that, I started to get pissed off very easily.

For dinner, we went to the cafe cartel @ PS to eat.
Was planning to eat in a fine restaurant but that Wilson wore a bemuda. l0ls.
Get to know one new friend as well. Jin Jiang aka JJ. l0ls.
Head off quite well on first meeting. hahas. very handsome guy leh. hahaha!
For the whole outing, I only talked to Rencong 2 times in short sentences.

After then, I suggested movies.
Wilson also dont want to go home early.
I only asked Wilson, Jurong, Hong Rui & Luen go. I never ask Rencong to go. l0ls.
That Luen asked him to go. wth...
No choice..

Super Rated. l0ls.
But super hilarious.

I keep holding on to Wilson & Hong Rui. I dont want to stand or sit beside RC lor.
l0ls.
The movie starts @ 11.20pm.
Went home @ 3am ++ ended up. Cos I want to take comfort Hyundai taxi. l0ls!

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2009-07-30T22:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's dinner @ Novena Square's TCC.
With Liyan, Wilson & Rencong.
In the first place, Liyan know I dont wish to call Rencong. So ask Junrong & Luen.
But they are not available. This is no choice.

Wilson keep looking at me to see my reaction. I beat him up.
I didnt talk much to Rencong. Liyan covered me up by asking how's my "Boyfriend". l0ls.
Wilson's face very funny, wanting to l0ls. hahas~

After dining, headed to Cotton On to check out clothes.
I bought 1 cardis, Liyan bought 2 tops & Wilson bought 1 belt + 1 Levi's shirt.
The shorts he found dont have his size.
I & Liyan then headed to check out some girls' stuff. Wilson entertain Rencong.
I dont wish to entertain him.

In MRT back home as well, Liyan drag Rencong to go talk to her.
Wilson kept me accompanied. we discussed on NTU stuffs. hahas.

...

today saw Chia at Koufu.
His seating is just right behind me. I didnt say anything. hahas.

For today & perhaps tomorrow, had to "throw" Liyan aside first. hahas.
We have plans to carried out.
Today Wilson had to cover up with a white lie.
He complained I didnt help him. Ya..he's terrible at lying. l0ls!
I didnt help him, he must learn. Next time this can be put to good use. hahas.

Today take bus, he also complained. Bus sick, wanted to vomit.
Waited for Luen at CP..I didnt except we arrived early then 7.15pm. that was very fast. hahas.
Wilson said he like 2 years never come to Sengkang.
Went to Giordano to look at clothes. Wilson still finding shorts. l0ls.
I found a blouse, $59.90. Oh my..hahas. went to Op, G2000, Converse.
It's so nice, so wonderful that your guy friend can go shopping with you. l0ls.

Hong Rui came along too, I didnt know in the first place cos' he never wear cap. l0ls.
Went to Bits & Pieces to check out Liyan's present.
I, Wilson & Luen fork out money to buy a necklace. l0ls.
The two of them ask me to wrap with 3 layers of newspapers. diao~
Hong Rui & Luen had some things to do first, dont know what they are doing.
I & WIlson go shopping lor~bump into Meishan at Popular entrance. hahas.
I saw her sister. l0ls.

After that, reunite with Luen & Hong Rui b4 heading back home.

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Past 3 days, I no mood to do FYP.
On Tuesday, I was helping Wilson with the autocad, my supervisor asked whether I finish my program.
Let him see, the he said create a moe advance program to allowa user to have more choices. l0ls.
Adding more work for me lor.

Yesterday, Wilson sat besides me to draw his circuits. His supervisor changes his design every min.
Ended bored cos' no NE..we spent the next 3 hrs talking.
Meilan spent that 3 hrs doing NE questions.
He used Meilan's liquid paper to squeeze & make a mountain.

Today didnt talk much, we very guai le.
But last min, really cant stand that prolonged hours so talk until his supervisor came in.
Today he used my liquid paper, highlighter & pen to play the same thing.
This time I took down the photo.

He's going to pay me a liquid paper real soon. l0ls.
Think maybe tomorrow not going to bugis..
But Wilson give me that kind of begging face..anyway I still see first. l0ls.

This Wilson, very cute..my little sister. l0ls.

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2009-07-26T16:05:00.001+08:00

lols. it's like more than a month since the previous update. hahas~
FYP isn't that fun. if can apply for 6 months attachments, be my guest. dont stay in school & suffer.
ever since my last update, alot of things happened.
I can see how my friends now treated me as. attitude wise or backstabbing wise..i dont know.
I didnt do anything, yet I got attitude by or backstabbed by.
It's not that I dont want to believe in you guys. you guys did it the hard way, how am I going to put trust on you?

nevermind. let's bygones be bygones.

Now I get to know some extra new friends during FYP. l0ls.
& through Liyan, know Rencong. he's very scary. I hated people to sms me daily especially you are not my whoever.
I told him when he have problems then come find me. Not sms me craps things. wasted my sms for the last week.
I feel very very uncomfortable with him. l0ls. I guess no much people understand this kind of feeling.
I dont like people to send me home. I can go home by myself. I'm not handicapped.
That time I ask Rencong to go home first, he still say nevermind. Oh God, pls help me.
When going out that time, i either stand with Luen or Wilson. I trying to avoid him.
Hahas. yesterday I was thinking I really must get myself a boyfriend. only then I can shake him off.
Pestering me isn't the right thing. l0ls.
Next time ask Luen to come out for outings, cos Rencong hated him so usually he wont be in the outings.

Still got Tommy they all. l0ls.
Tommy, though he's a playboy but he's a very good & humorous friend. l0ls.
A min without him in the lab, the atmosphere is in total silent.
Wilson is another one. He's my sister. l0ls!
Still got Wu Xing, Samuel. l0ls.

I still left 2 more things to do before I finished up my programming code. I want to cry~

.....

Back in the weeks, watched Night At the Museum 2 & Harry Potter:Half blood prince
Last week, watched Transformers:Revenge of the fallen with Liyan, Wilson, Luen & Rencong.
Next time movie trip, got Rencong go, I wont go. l0ls.
Even if Wilson say he wanted to watch movie & asked Rencong along, I also wont go. hahas!

After 4 weeks, I'm free as a bird. I wanted to go studies. I hated FYP.
Oh..recently Samsung release notebooks again.
I'm so in love with Samsung notebook X470!

hopefully my maple installation works. long time since I play maple. l0ls.
for now, I try to update often. sometimes I dont really have the mood to open up my computer. l0ls.

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2009-06-20T16:40:00.003+08:00

This week FYP isn't that bad. lols. only very exhausted day after day.
Luen joined us in school on Monday, Wednesday & Friday this week. special arrangements. lols.
Had our first NE this week. funny. d0ts.
early release after NE so I, Wilson, Liyan & Luen went to watch movie.

"Drag Me To Hell"

This movie, I cannot find the time to rest after each scary scene. lols.

I & Liyan trying to hide here & there.

However, the best horror movie with some comedies.

Expect the unexpected..lols.

Box Office #1, even Wilson said it's the best horror movie.

He loves horror movies so worth watching..

Just go & watch. lols. but dont watch alone, trust me.

I, Luen & Liyan are psycho-ing people, saying that it's a comedy show. ask them to go watch.

...

Thursday stayed in school to admire the stars hanging up high in the sky. hahas.

Meet up Wei Yep over dinner-time, listen to his complicated stories as well.

...

Yesterday went out the whole night.

Luen wanted me & Liyan to join them watch soccer but I dont really want to see live.

So headed down to bugis to eat dinner & shopping.

Ended up I also don't know how Luen psycho me go watch. just go lor.

Head down to Lanvender, to the Jalan Besar Stadium. Me. Liyan & Joel first time watch live.

Luen bet $100 on Brunei, Joel bet $20 on SG.

Ended up the result is 1-1. no lose no gain.

Match start @ 8pm, end @ 10pm.

After that, the two guys wanted to go eat supper.

I thought Joel drive lorry, ended up he got a new car. stupid Luen, still say to me it's lorry.

Two of them still can fight over where to go for supper.

After that, bring us go Geylang to see whether there is 'chickens'.

Luen looks so disappointing yesterday. hahas!

He arh, still saying about his $100 soccer bet. lols. I very irritating on it liao lor. lols.

Joel really bring us for a joyride. I have no idea where is where.

Next stop, they wanted to go eat soya beancurd. hahas. chit-chat.

In the most ulu place still can saw familiar friends. Liyan saw her classmate.

Then, Joel sent me & Liyan home.

In the car, I don't know who's the driver. Both can fight over directions. lols.

They want to say something using dialects but they scared I understand. lols.

I understand dialects but I don't know how to speak.

They also try to speak in Teochew, I can understand abit. lols.

I tell them just say lor, I don't listen..act blur can already. lols.

...

later heading down to Orchard for dinner. hahas. :)

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2009-06-13T10:46:00.002+08:00

Another week of FYP gone.
I seriously dont have any idea of what I'm doing. lols.

Sometimes thinking of all these happy memories, thinking of what happened this year. *Sigh~
Like what Liyan said, Year 1 & 2 everyone is happily together. Going out together alost all the time.
Year 3 everyone changed. things are totally different now.
I've told Liyan about my situation.
cos' she seldom see me ignoring people. lols.
Yesterday bump into Ivan & his China gf. I just walked straight. Liyan was stunned. lols.
Wilson is the blur one. lols. he knows my story as well but he dont know who is Ivan. lols.
He still can mistaken Ivan to Island. pronunciation mistakes. lols!

.....

*Yesterday if not for Wilson, I think I'll be hit by a car.
It's a close relief. The car stopped immediately, lucky. but if it didnt, no need to see me anymore.

yesterday vodka made me high. lols. Luen & Liyan said my face red.
Not in a good mood by heart but I'll do my best to be open-minded on these things.
Now I dont mind bumping into the worst incompatible couple, I just walk straight. lols.

Now I was thinking, if I got hit by that car & ... Maybe I wont be that much in pain in heart.
The pain in broken bones is totally incomparable to the pain in my heart.
I wanted to look forward to finding some other good guys but after that thing happened, ....
I gave up.
I'm not willing to open up my feelings. I'm not willing to hurt myself anymore.

- Though Blk S labs have handsome guys but I dont have that kind of 'Oh my god!' feeling.
I totally give up. This year cant find another appropriate one, I just want to be single.
- Be a single & old virgin woman. lolols!! for crying out loud. hahas!

......

- This Wilson asked me a very good question.
I told him I wanted to study in CQUniversity Int'l Study Cenre, SG.
- Why arh, I dont want to study in NUS, NTU, SMU or SIM?

* Firstly, only 15% poly grads can go in. Enough?

* Secondly, I hated competitions!!! Why for fight over a seat in Uni with thousands of people?!
I find it very foolish l0R*

* Thirdly, so many China students inside. From what I heard from my cousin's husband,
all super kiasu one. What for waste my efforts to fight over with the China students?!

That's the reasons I told Wilson.
I also dont know why but i just dont like it.
He told me I can try out NTU cos they intake alot of poly grads.
you sure? Oh I cant believe that. lols.

I wanted to take the Bachelor of Science in Psychology in CQUniversity.
Now there are quite a no. of Australia Universities in Singapore.
Though it may be expensive but better than facing so many China gangs.

....

just now discussed with my mum. She said go NTU see see if not choose australia uni.
I confirmed wont go SMU & SIM. NUS 90% sure wont go.
NTU I'll check it it first.

Confession On A Fresh Start

2009-06-08T22:27:00.003+08:00

I am back! :)
Recently did some self-reflections. acutally it feels so good. lols.

FYP isnt that bad as compared to attachment.
attachment you can make new friends but not with your own group of friends.
FYP is great. know new friends..all older than me. lols.
Know Wilson through Liyan.
1st & 4th day of the 1st week, just treat me.
Past 2 yrs, everyone is in the same lectures but I dont know him at all.
Friend bonding isn't that bad for the 1st week.
10am break, 12nn lunch, 3pm break, I'm usually with him, Liyan & Junrong.

In lab, there are 2 person who are Luen's friends: Bu Ke & He Lan.
What they said are correct, He Lan really look like Li Sheng Jie. lols!
Bu ke, first time I see such a better looking guy among all China guys. hahas.
he's just my project groupmate. Soobin's friend, Junan as well.
All got linkage, didnt you realise?

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Did had a great time last Saturday.
Went out with Liyan, Luen & his friend Hong Rui.
Can you imagine going out with a childish person like Luen & a matured person like Hong Rui?
lols. Luen still show off his $150 China touchphone. diao~
Sing K till 8pm.
Headed to eat & play lane till 9.30pm.
Thinking of going to Marina but I dont want so catch a 11.40pm movie.

'Blood: The Last Vampire'

Bloody is bloody but not to the great extent.

Overall isnt that bad. lols.

Went back home at 3am++. tired..dead-

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Today stayed in school till 8.40pm. Chit-chat session. lols.

Wei Yep coming over to school to meet.

Han Cheng joined us for a while. I,Liyan & Wei Yep sat down in another corner to chat & share.

This Wei Yep, like want to force me to meet up Zhi Hao. I dont want.

I & him are long long over ok.

He still can ask if I Wed want to join them for dinner cos' Zhi Hao will be graduating after his IA.

I also die die dont want. lols.

Wei Yep planning for a movie trip. Liyan is in.

Now really must think of an idea to psycho Wilson to go watch movie.

He really need to enjoy life especially this year.

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Now I've given myself a new chance to start afresh.

I dont wish to talk about him. I've deleted him from my facebook & friendster friend list.

I blocked him from my msn & on my hp. I'll delete his msn in times to come.

Now what is left are those outing photos.

I'm not so cruel, I didnt delete it cos' it's a class outing. at least this is worth keeping.

for now, I wish to input new photos & memories. :)

- A great memory created.

2009-05-31T17:14:00.002+08:00

- End of IA -

My supervisor treat me to a Japanese restaurant.
First time sitting in a mini cooper. lols. Spent two hours on lunch.
Bought me a donkey + pencil case as a farewell gift. :) this is very surprising.
In return, I bought them something to eat from the France barkery.
I was thinking of buying some displays but have no idea what to buy.
My supervisor keep saying no need.

So Cute!!

~ it's so hard to leave. I'll miss her. She's a very great supervisor, great staff.
She told me whether I'll be back to work here. I dont know how to answer.
They will be hiring temp. workers but Lily said why work as temp, work as permanent. lols.
I see how first.
Denise asked me to call her if I wanted to work here.
I really wanted to see Mandy again. She's like my second mentor.
No wonder Mr Goh said that that is a very great company to be in.

Back to school tomorrow to see teacher's face. lols.
it's also great to be in school BUT without those stupid temperature exercises.
Waste of time. people can get it even without the fever yet.
Might as well draw everyone's blood weekly to go for a test. better this way.
If wanted to check temperature, at least check once a day.
So troublesome to walk to the TFA there to check & take stickers twice. diao~
might as well to play safe, stay at home.
Now MOH still dont wish to turn the colour to orange.
Singapore have cases..yet colour still can remain at yellow.

...

Things are now taking a slow & relaxing pace.
I've cleared out all the unwanteds finally! Thank god. so many rubbish. lols.
Mum bought two D&C wears & two bags for me before I went back to school. :) hehes.

My project supervisor is the FYP teacher-in-charge.
I dont know whether I'm out of luck to be under him or very lucky.
Arh~ forget it. I prepared MOE hotline in case he bully me. lols!
no, I'm serious on this.

THIS IS NO PLAY

2009-05-16T19:21:00.002+08:00

Uploaded new pictures but still incomplete. lols.

..
Recently things arent that stable.
I dont get it why he still can be so thick skinned to call me.
To ask me settle this thing while you are still with that girl?
You think my godson will want to patch up friendship with you if you are still with that girl?
You should know he is very stubborn, you even told me once yourself. Yet you still want to settle things now?
Dont you think it's the wrong timing? stupid*
..
..
dont even mention about this word 'feeling'.
You ARE in the wrong.
You shouldnt said so loudly to the whole world that you wont snatch your friend's lover.
You did that once, I helped you clean up. Now you repeat the history.
Should I help you again, huh? You should know the answer.

We asked you before. You promised in front of your brothers that they are more important so you betrayed them.
Can I ask if this is what I called 'empty promises'?
Just because of that China girl, you throw away all these promises you had made.
..
..
Only you break up with her, godson that side I sure can settle.
Dont break up, I cant settle & though I can help you settle, I'm just adding on his misery.
Anyway just treat it as you dont have this kind of friend & I dont have this kind of friend like you.
No need to use other people's phone to call me as well.
Dont make me change my phone number. Dont blame me that I'm cruel.
I 100% understand what my godson is going through because I have this experience before.
I've told you dont frustrate or provoke me. ended up you are making things super sour. :)

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This is the guy who made two more bouquets of flowers for me.

He is a professional. I said when he retire, he can open flower shop. lols.

I'll go there buy roses everytime. hahas.

Left: My supervisor's supervisor.

Right: Sr. HR staff. In charge of IA students.

All three of them are very sweet. but still got others. lols.

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2009-05-12T10:31:00.002+08:00

On-hand works are giving pressure. So stress out. lols.

霹靂MIT last episode tomorrow. MUST WATCH. lols.
though I watched once cos i bought the DVD but I still watching it on TV. lols.
All answers will be revealed tomorrow. Yes!

Now better..still can arrange my time & work.
Have to change ez-link this week. Kind of troublesome. still have to activate at the ticket office.
now not much people, they can asked students to do it at the ticket booths.
This is called: One Stone kill Two Birds. '''' lols!

I was thinking about the H1N1.
My immunity isnt that strong.
Yesterday I wasnt feeling well. scared the freak out of me. lols.
Thinking of taking MC for today but the EDC project details have to be done by this Friday.
For now, I'm dragging myself to work. lols.

...

Just now went to airport to send our Taiwan friend home.
her baggages overweight by 10 kg so we went there to help her.
Had to pay $135 for that extra weight & she has already finished up her money in singapore. lols
She bought 9 pairs of shoes. nice bah! clothes, bedsheets, food, souvenirs.......lols. :)
but most importantly she enjoys! hehes.
I & Kristine ended up eating at the airport.
so many angmo (s)..loved it! >.<

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2009-05-11T08:45:00.003+08:00

So many things to say yet so little hardworking bugs inside me to blog the infomation out.

I MUST replace my picture board with new pictures today.
I keep dragging till I ended up forgetting about changing the photos. MUST remind myself!
Some photos are not meant to be kept for future memories.

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We girls went to 'crazy' club last Thursday. lols.
Linen was totally horrible that day. mind full of 'molesting'.
go out with her, you have to pray for protection charms from all the temples. lols! JK.
however, it was real fun! :)
I love singing till late. Yes!

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Friday went to White Sand & Tampine 1 with my mum.
bought lots of stuffs from Tampine 1. Taiwan dramas, movies, korean & Japanese food + snacks. hehes..
Cant take bus so took a taxi instead. lols.

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Saturday, went on a tour with the Taiwan friend.
I skipped out the Chinatown trip. joined them in Sentosa trip. Yeah!
Something very funny happened.
I got mistaken as tourist. lols.
They tell me on Singapore history. hahas. but actually not bad. they learned their history well.
of course they do if not they wont be working in Sentosa.

After that, do some shopping in Vivo City.
Go see see Linen in Tangs. lols.
So many shoes. My all time fav. & the m)phosis clothes. I'll buy one day, I swear.
I buy one clothes from there before my first-time clubbing. lols!

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I think I'll work super hard for the time being to earn $$.
I want to go to Taiwan. MUST GO!
Earn more $$ to buy lots of posters & idol magazines. hahas! Yes! >.<
I now finding weekends jobs..see first bah. lols.

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2009-05-04T08:33:00.002+08:00

Over the long weekends, helped Jie Sheng kor to take care of his Vickey. lols.
My sister took lots of pictures on Thursday night but I took pictures on Sunday afternoon. lols.

Vickey is clever. house-training one day, she knows where to go release though sometimes she didnt.
lols. make my mother so busy...cleaning up the poops. hahas. but no offences - lah. hahas.
Vickey really is like a baby. :)
keep holding her whole day. sleep in my arms for whole day also not a problem. lols.
play alot, sleep alot. super hyper + normal puppy. lols. :)
upload the photos by this week.

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My sister asked if can make a scrapbook with our pets on it.
actually this isn't a bad idea right?
I can input Vickey's photos in as well. hehes.

-..-

seldom heard that indians love korean dramas.
My supervisor's supervisor love to watch. I was stunned. lols!
he told me he loved to watch Ch U "lIKEABLE oR nOT".. lols, he is so so cute man! :)

come to think of it, Tony is a very cute guy though he has the age already - lah.
his cologne is thick though i love that cologne smell - lah.
anyway, please dont say I like older man. only linen love old man.
I must emphasis this in underlined red. lols!!

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Well..about doris's tag..she is such a darling. lols. >.<
just attached is ok. have to spend more time with you.
sometimes relationships always got tied up in the mid-progress. hahas. lols.
that's what I've learned.

(Go Lunch First..continue blogging later.)

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Going to meet up a Taiwan friend this Saturday to give a tour in Singapore.
This Taiwan friend will be my personal tourguide when I go to Taiwan next year.
Yup, I & my mum postponed it to after my poly graduation. lols.
& plus the Swine Flu..I dont really dare to go overseas this year.
hopefully next year could be better.
if red alert for this flu, I dont want to live anymore. lols. kidding only.

Zoo trip cancelled as well in case things happened..unless you want to commit suicide by that flu. lols.

Now online shopping for TV dramas. check if there is anything to watch. hahas.
shall blog again soon. :)

Love you guys! Muacks!! *flying kisses*!! >.<

ALL FACTS..

2009-04-30T13:41:00.004+08:00

Ever since my godson's incident happened, it's been quite a while since I'm in contact with Ivan. lols.
I put his contact under the auto reject list.
I never reply any single of his sms.
I'm just havent get over with my frustrations.
Dont even beg for forgiveness or ask Luen to talk to me.
All these wait till next year graduation then say. I dont want to see your face now. spoiled my mood. lols!!

It's so nice to put someone under auto reject list. lols.
no need to worry whether I want to pick up the call(s). hahas!
no worries, only lucky contestants will be put up in the auto reject listing. lols! :)

..

Anyway this coming kbox outing is for singles first.
I'll organized one more kbox outing before 1st week of June. hahas.
those of you, you want to whine or complain, just go ahead.
after this incident, i just feel like hanging out with the singles first.
when I'm feeling much better, the the whole gang come out for gathering ok?
anyway you guys also have upcoming events next week which I dont know as well. lols!

....

The Swine Flu!!
OMG!
no vaccine to prevent it.
the world is really at its end.
human to human can be easily transmitted. more worst.

how to go zoo next week? lols.
next time dont know got what type of flu from which type of animal. hais..
I think I also no need to survive. my immunity so weak.
i still have nose allergydue to seasonal or climate change, & dust & environmetal problems.
it's suffering already, now the world come out with another new flu. goodness sake.

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2009-04-27T15:35:00.003+08:00

Today is busy. lols
first time call so many suppliers. hahas
things started to get messy..even my godson's problems.

..

It's not that I dont wish to care.

It's just that I've washed my hand over these stupid problems.
No point calling or sms me
I wont reply any of your calls or sms.
No need to say sorry to me. go say sorry to my godson.
I dont need your apologies & explanations.
No point explaining to me when I'm at my boiling limits.

No point of you wanting to call me yesterday to talk.
The problem is not on me..it's on my godson.
& i also dont wish to talk to you for the time being..I dont wish to get myself heartbroken again.
twice is enough.

I wont help in cleaning up your mess anymore.
You D.I.Y please.
IT'S FRUSTRATING*

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Too overly stressed. OMG.
I want to go singing to release the stress. hahas!
I want to have some crazy fun. lols!

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2009-04-25T19:27:00.002+08:00

I was updating the quotation today.
I found something very interesting.. or maybe I'm too slow for this kind of infomation.
I didnt know 飞轮海 sing Japanese songs (??)
Their Japanese language really sound like they are japanese but I still can differentiate them. lols!

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Just found the MV. It's a total rare treasure. lols. So I downloaded it & put in my MP4. hahas!
I just need to convert to AVI..hopefully can cos I've never use the converter for long long time. lols!

...

About things going well (?)
Luen called me up to ask me what to do about my godson's case.
I just said it's none of my business, is he who betrayed my godson. what can I do?
I already helped to clean up the same mess once.
I wont be so stupid to clean up the same mess twice.
*ever heard: 'once bitten, twice shy' ?

I've told you. you just want to cross the line only. that's too sad to see.
I still want to live on rather than committing suicide.

...

Finally! My visa..coming soon next week. hahas.

I & two of my friends are discussing about the taiwan trip.
One of them from warehouse dept is going from 29 April - 3 May.
She said she'll bring back lots of maps & mrt lines & stuffs. lols.
My another friend told us that she have a taiwan friend there. a supplier from the 'hp' company.
She can ask her friend to give us a private tour. hehes.
she helped us to print out those hotels with reasonable prices.
just got her friend's photo yesterday..in case we cant spot her at the airport.

So cool~
private tour. yeah!
my dad wont be going, i guess.. (?)

-..-
I want to go makan. super hungry. lols.

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2009-04-21T07:57:00.002+08:00

Linen wanted to meet up yesterday & plus I need some companies since so many things happened just one day only.
have dinner out as well.
did some shopping..found some very nice clothes. hehes.

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Yesterday I thought I was more like a zombie.
actually today more worst..
yesterday night eat that 'sleeping pill'..sleep thru' the night but today headache. lols.
I'm a dead person now..no differences. lols!
I'm clearing up most of my work now..feel better.

....

now super busy..talk again soon.

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2009-04-20T10:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday heard a terrible news.
For me, I have already healed in my own wounds except that I cant stop myself from detesting people.
some of the things cannot be forgetten & forgiven.
this is the fact in reality. you cant forever live in dreamworld. this world is cruel.

..

however, it's ok for you to hurt me terribly. it's ok for me to have cold wars with you.
but why you wanted to hurt my godson as well?
I never seen my godson cried before. why is it has to be you whom make him cry?
you really make me hated you. things aint that worst beforehand..you are making things worst.
what to do? helped you once, now help you again to clean up this mess?
You already upset one person, yet you still have the guts to do that to my godson.
it's a total disappointment.
I seriously dont know how to console my godson now.
to tell him the truth, it'll be very cruel. things will never get settled.

...

I'm relaxed now.
planning to sing K. finding people to accompany in May. lols.

..

i'm like a zombie now. totally not in the correct mood.
hais..
later go buy cake to eat. hehes- cheer myself up abit with my fav. strawberry cake. lols.

-..-

Guys, I really need some time off as well though my work is lighten bit by bit.
I need more oxygen to breathe in..
so dont try to provoke or pester me like hell..thanks alot for that.

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2009-04-19T14:22:00.002+08:00

Wanted to blog in office but dont have the time. Sad-

Last week, everyone is turning the office upside down. lols.
meetings..paperworks..meetings..deadlines..
work till suffocated. now still having that headache.
Cant finish up my work so I brought home to do some at least. Monday is busy again.
Have to meet supplier alone of Mandy is busy. OMG..I'm afraid I cannot handle it. lols.

however, as a human, I must have confidence in my work if not they wont believe in us, right? lols.

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Yesterday watched 霹靂MIT from afternoon till midnight.
instense bah. lols. not sure how many episode I've watched.
yesterday all tired out. just lied there on the bed restless. lols. thinking of what to do.
thinking maybe watch that series since I'm craving for crime movies recently.
around night-time, watched till one episode with horror part. the sound is kinda creepy. diao~
my sister dont dare to switch off her light before sleep. lols.

....

Today after finishing up some of my work, continue watching. hehes.
hais..after that I guess no more series to watch le bah. hais~
next week go & check out any new release movies or series..

-..-

Oh..anyway right. you dont have to message me suddenly after you read my previous entry.
things already progress till like that. no point suddenly do this kind of things.

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have a mini gathering with Doris, Aisyah & Yi Jie. over at Aisyah's house.
but have to go back early. I'm looking forward to next time
& also Doris's answer on whether she wanted to work as a PA.
Anyway, go for your interest.
if you really wanted to be PA though there are disadvantages then you should go for your interest. :)

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2009-04-13T10:03:00.002+08:00

After half way through attachment, life started to get tricky. lols.
Today discussed about where to eat as Kenneth is having his last week here.
Supposingly it was today but kinda packed so changed to Wednesday.
Thinking of having lunch but no time so dinner.
Guess should be either in Swensen or BBQ Chicken (newly opened at Northpoint)

lols. Just now my supervisor give chocolate. hahas-
now eyes super tired.
Just sms Luen not long to wish him Happy Birthday. lols.
His birthday cannot run away. either before school reopens or the 1st week of school. lols!

..

I now check things still going mad soon. lols!
Wha..I wanted to sleep. hahas. missed my room. lols.
but it's ok. I put Aaron Yan's photo on my hp. keep me awake. diao~
I believe everyone will say me siao. lols!
even my sister is shocked that I'll like Aaron Yan. lols!

.._..

Ok..going to release from work in half an hr times. hehes.
go compass shop shop first before heading home.
Chat soon tml. :)

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2009-04-11T22:00:00.004+08:00

Watched "Fast & Furious 4" with Wei Yep yesterday.

$10 movie ticket. heartpain but reasonable.

firstly, public holiday.

secondly, super nice! full house in the cinema. yehyeh! lols.

the cars are brand news. faster. more actions than ever.

perfect action & racing movie I've watched in my life.

The whole cinema clapped. lols. everyone trying to be very funny. lolols!!

...

Wei Yep knows that I dont on my hp on Saturdays so he usually booked me fast.

dare to book me on yesterday which I also dont have much time.

I put him in a late timeslot cos' he die die also want to watch that movie.

firstly I push it off then he complained so a late timeslot since he's ok with it. lols.

.._..

Yesterday bum into Aisyah! Coincidence! lols.

Long long ago since I saw her. hahas.

...

finding pictures now. I chat with you guys again soon next week. lols.

muacks! love you darlings!!

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2009-04-09T08:57:00.003+08:00

Dont know since when I started to like 飛輪海. lols.
I LOVE Aaron Yan, 炎亚纶!
He's so handsome when he didnt smile. lols.

.._..

霹靂MIT / Mysterious Incredible Terminator

In this TV series, he didnt smile that very often. So cool~
Hahas. paiseh. my type of guy.
Yup, I change my taste on guys after attached to this company. lols!

I & my sister chase this TV series like mad..lols.
It isn't bad to have a younger sister right. (?)
As time goes by, she grow up & same common interests pop up. lols.
except that I'm not very into korean dramas.

lols! I keep blogging bit by bit in my office now. I'm trying to be funny.
Blog while doing work, eating sandwiches which my dad made for me.
1st time my dad did this thing.
& now I'm having attachment in office..our relationship is closer than the past years. lols.

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Today's company super funny with all the jokes.
But serious thing happened.
A finance dept staff's car got scratched. But what really happened I dont know. lols.
He really sounded frustrated.
Just now R&D Mr Johnny Lu give me a jump. lols!

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Watching movie with Wei Yep tml since he asked yesterday in a very pathetic way. lols-
missed call me 8 times. lols. every hour-
so promised to watch movie with him. hahas.

ok..super busy now. Chat again next week.

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2009-04-08T09:37:00.004+08:00

Well..I have things to say.
Maybe situation will turn sour or got hated..but it's time.
I wont take back what I said or mentioned today, however still have to apologize for this.

Actually this has been going on for a couple of years back.
I already can sensed that our friendship is ruining..no turning back.
I tried my best to make this friendship turns better but..hais.
So I've decided to see as time goes by..
Seriously this friendship really cannot make it. So perhaps it's time to draw a line...?
I guess maybe you know who you are.
So since this kind of situation is like "Hi-Bye" friendship, I guess you no need to treat me so well.
Sometimes people treat me very well, ended up they always did things behind my back w/o fail.
So since you & I draw a line, maybe your another half no need to treat me so nice next time.

That's all. shall see how as time goes by.
Maybe I wont be tutoring I guess..I wanted to try out the outside working experience.
Like that it wont be so pathetic if I work part-time overseas. lols.

.._..

I still have the mindset to change my blogskin so this is just only a temporary. lols.
Still have to check out some more blogskins.

Oh..& my Chinchilla, Vivi, is pregnant!! I guess cos' I cant see the difference.
Vivi is already so chubby. lols!
& based on my mum's reaction, I guess I'm getting another dog! :)
Hmmm..but my dad objects. lols.
Anyway my mum said Jiahui bought a Maltese. Just nice is the breed I wanted.
& a few wks ago, my aunt (Jiahui's mum) said she sont really want to keep the dog.
So my mum told my dad to ask my aunt last Saturday. lols.

Now my little family has started to expand. Soooo happy! ^*^
It's the wonderful thing that ever happened.

Saying about my mum, she thought that I am married. diao~
I'm still single & independent. hahas!
When we were at Vivo City, she told me to bring my children next time. huh(?)
She is trying to be funny I believe. lols.

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Chat again tml.
I'm been blogging since 8am in the morning. Now evening, going to off work soon. lols.

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2009-04-07T14:11:00.003+08:00

Realised that the guys in the company I attached to, are all gentlemen. lols.
Let the guys pass first but they insisted me to pass first. lols.

Seriously, working environment is totally the opposite of school environment.
Guys in working environment are like guys.
Guys in school environment..hais..all can go be monks already.
In another way of saying, they all can eat shit from the toilets.

Office work isn't as bad as I thought right. lols.
I'm in considerations to work in office first while studying at night perhaps. intensity.
However, sometimes you need to press yourself to work. lols.
Now I'm helping Kristine's friend to correct all the english errors while doing my work. faint~*
My supervisor is on-leave for two days so it's like..everyone is turning the dept. down. lols!
She is fierce-type of supervisor so..hehes~ but she is very nice & friendly.

Outside is raining so heavily..how to go home ar~
Today suddenly so many customers coming in to the company
& also suddenly out-of-the-blue, so many gd-looking guys here.
Guess is from finance dept or R&D dept..I dont know. lols.

Dont crap le. need to continue my work.
Been blogging ons & offs since lunch time.
Later going for some mini-shopping with Kristine after work. lols-

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2009-04-06T13:06:00.002+08:00

Back again! :)

This time I'm in the office blogging. lols.
Now lunch time so rest awhile. Resting is good as you still have a long journey to head to.
Today is "Banana Day" as told by the company. lols.
Each person gets two bananas. lols.
Till now havent eat the bananas yet. hahas.

Now I have so many things to do. Got new SQA coming in & chasing suppliers for quotations. lols.
This is the life man!
Though it can be crazy & busy in the office but the fun is always there. lols.
My supervisors came back from lunch not long. hahas.
Part of the male staffs here are totally...hehes. OMG.
There is one who looks like a Japanese actor. He just queued next to me during lunchtime!
I'm boy-crazy now. whahaha..lols!

Ok I dont want to talk so much rubbish again.
I go enjoy my banana first.

P.S. Sooner..I'm going to be boy-eater. Kill those who make me suffer!

A NEW START

2009-04-05T18:25:00.001+08:00

Changed of link & blogskin finally.
Amendments to my life after I've met Kristine Lin.
She makes me be myself & she seems so alive w/o troubles.

So I decided to throw all the past behind, step into a new horizon.
However, some things cannot be changed no matter what.
Such as some friendships are being ruined. I cant closed both eyes on that, definitely.

Time flies. One month since the attachment.
Kenneth will be out of the company after two weeks.
& we have a new comer two weeks ago, Jovan from NP. P.S. My supervisor's nephew. Coincidence?
All IA students here are boys. lols. seriously.

Kristine is a new contract staff there.
We started off like very good friends. lols. Told her alot of things as well.
However, most topics are like..grown-up topics. Children, flats, money, studies..etc.
She told me why I didnt choose Kenneth cos he's good-looking.
hahas. NO WAY.
Firstly, he's one year younger. Secondly, not tall enough. Thirdly, no sense of secure.
Kristine's husband height is the best. & he's good-looking! Please dont get the wrong idea. lols.

But I guess I'm in some kind of trouble.
My supervisors think that I & Kenneth are together. OMG..die liao.
Cos he keeps coming down to ask me for help or just talking. sian..

Last Friday went over to Kristine's house. She's making Popiah. lols.
She needs help. lols!
Her one year old son very playful. lols! but super cute. hahas!

Yesterday, went out with my mum to Vivo City eat dim sum.
Guess who I saw!! A star from CH 5! One look, I know who is he but I dont know the name. lols.
He's so handsome..in real life.
The lady he's with, she's totally ruining his reputation. Actions so many.

Ok..I guess I'll blog a week later. I'm out for a fresh air before I settled myself down.